Mini Burnouts

Sometimes when I don't post for awhile on the adult sites, or even on BlueSky, it's for legitimate reasons like the kids are sick or I'm sick or life is busy and gets in the way. Other times, I don't post because I have nothing new to post, usually because I'm not feeling particularly sexy or sexual. And yet other times, I don't post because I'm having a mini burnout.

Anyone who thinks that creating porn is easy... well, fuck them!

It is so much freaking work and unless you're hitting it big, it's so much work for very little reward. It's a full-time job with less than minimum wage pay, for the most part. It is mentally and physically challenging work. Sometimes, you create and promote things for weeks on end and don't make a single sale or get so much as a comment or a like.

It can be incredibly disheartening...

When I start to get that feeling of being defeated by it all, I need to step back and take a break from it. I need to regroup and get re-inspired. I need to remember why I even do it all. I need to breathe.

The reality is, I'm rarely making the type of content I want to make because I have so many limitations on what I can do. I'm not running my business the way I really want to because I can't for a ton of really dumb reasons that mostly comes down to: because it's just not my style. For example, I absolutely admire the creators who plan shoot days and do themed content and then schedule their posts months out and livestream every single day (or even on a schedule) and post 50 different pictures to promote their sites. But it is so antithetical to the way I create and post. Dreams but not realistic for me.

And sometimes, I beat myself up about that. And then it becomes harder to motivate myself to push that publish button. I'm not able to do it the way that I want to, so I'm not seeing the results I want and then I just become slightly paralyzed and it takes me awhile to bounce back from it. To realize I have these limitations and then to figure out how I'm going to work in them.

It happens much more often than I'd like to admit, where I just feel burnt out by it all. And I know for a fact that I'm not the only adult content creator who feels that way - you'd think that would bring some sort of comfort, but it rarely does.

We put so much of ourselves into this work. So much time and effort and research and experimentation and a lot of times, it can feel like screaming into a void... A really empty, lonely void.

I tend to spend a lot of time during these burnout periods seeking out inspiration in whatever form. It's a lot of endless scrolling and clicking around and reading every single thing you can. You have to be careful though because it's easy to read about other creators and then compare yourself to them and that's no good. I don't know who said it but comparison really is the thief of joy.

So anyways, I'm currently going through a mini burnout - it sucks and I'm attempting to pull myself out (and failing pretty miserably), so you know... Show me some love and support, maybe that'll help!