I always despise those times where you're obviously getting things done but feel as though you're doing nothing. Almost every single day, I'm checking things off my to-do list (the one in my brain, not an actual physical to-do list) but I get to the end of the day and feel like I've gotten nothing done. It's probably because there's still things left to be done.
I've been working on blog stuff a lot lately. If you haven't seen yet, the pages here got a bit of an update - not sure if this will be their final iteration or not because I'm still not in love with it. I've also created a handful of other blogs, have been re-working older blogs and just generally, it's been all about the blogging for the past couple weeks.
Then I had multiple days where I was attempting to wrap my head around OBS. It shouldn't be as hard as I'm making it but for some reason, I just can't seem to take the plunge on it. I had one day where I literally spent 5 hours just clicking on things, feeling like I was getting nowhere and am still not sure if I accomplished anything. I really want to livestream somewhere other than Chaturbate and I really want to do something more interesting than just smoke my lungs out!
I love watching livestreams with multiple camera angles. I spent money on getting Lovense toys specifically for livestreaming purposes. I just want to do more with my livestreaming and I honestly think OBS is going to be a big part of that. It's also been on my to-do list for over a year, so it's about time I get on that!
I was recently contacted to do a collab with an app-controlled sex toy company for livestreaming, which is incredibly exciting. I am very much looking forward to my first stream with these toys and it looks like they use OBS for their setup, however they make it look like it'll be very simple to get going and maybe it will assist me with at least dipping my toes into the world of using the software.
I finally got my first custom smoking video request, which was also hugely exciting! I want to make so many more. I love how inspiring custom videos can be. It was a good experience for me and I'm still waiting to hear back from the buyer about their thoughts. Me personally, if I were to spend money on custom content, I would be writing a detailed review of that thing the moment I was done getting off to it. I guess that's not the experience of the average buyer...
I have so much content I need to edit and every single day, I'm clicking into it and doing something small and then I lose all steam and can't seem to bring myself to hit publish. I'm being hyper critical and standing in my own way. I know that this will eventually pass, it always does, but in the meantime it's making me feel very stunted and frustrated - like I'm getting nothing done!
It also seems like everyday I add a bunch more things to this neverending to-do list. It's never anything super important but also, it kinda is. And while I love that I always have something I can do, the process of deciding what I should work on is always super daunting. Where should I focus my energy today? "I don't know!", she whines dramatically.
Anyways, that's today's little vent. Thanks for reading...